Tuesday

Today is the Memorial. Memorial Bible reading: Matthew 26:17-19; Mark 14:12-16; Luke 22:7-13; John 13:1-5; 14:1-3.

Those who are set to go too Heaven will partake of the Emblems. Those of the Earthly class will remain on Earth. This is one of the things we do yearly because Jesus said to keep doing it.

Interesting on the sinus stuff. I also have a sinus infection. It hurts badly. Hope you feel better.

My eyes were opened again

One of the things that was happening to me which I really didn't mention here much but I get sick often. I get real bad headaches. It gets to a point that no matter where I am, I have to sleep.

If I'm in the car, I have to pull over and rest and rest for hours if needed till the pain goes away. I wondered why and just thought to myself, well I just get sick. Then I looked at what I was doing on life. I was eating good. I could work out again but even when I did, I still got sick. What was it?

Well I heard something which I should have known but never wanted to find out about it. It was Aspartame. You might ask, What's that? It's funny because when it comes to vaccinations I'm the first to ask what's in it. Aspartame is what I was drinking.

Why would I do such a thing? Well it was in my Diet Coke Soda that I thought was ok to drink. Next question might be, What exactly is Aspartame? Aspartame is 50% phenylalanine, 40% aspartic acid, and 10% methanol. The primary breakdown products of these chemicals are formaldehyde, formic acid and DKP (Diketopiperazine) a proven brain tumor agent.

This is what I was drinking on a daily basis in my DIET COKE. I became addicted to it. There wasn't a day that went by that I didn't want to drink my soda. I had to have it and I didn't even realize what it was doing to me.

What are the side effects of Aspartame. Well?

Eye
blindness in one or both eyes
decreased vision and/or other eye problems such as: blurring, bright flashes, squiggly lines, tunnel vision, decreased night vision ( I have this )
pain in one or both eyes ( I have this )
decreased tears
trouble with contact lenses
bulging eyes

Ear
tinnitus - ringing or buzzing sound ( I Have this )
severe intolerance of noise ( I have this )
marked hearing impairment

Neurologic
epileptic seizures
headaches, migraines and (some severe) ( I really have this )
dizziness, unsteadiness, both ( I have both )
confusion, memory loss, both ( I have this )
severe drowsiness and sleepiness ( I have this )
paresthesia or numbness of the limbs ( I have this )
severe slurring of speech ( This has started this month )
severe hyperactivity and restless legs
atypical facial pain
severe tremors ( I have this - I shake at times )

Psychological/Psychiatric
severe depression
irritability
aggression ( I can have this )
anxiety ( I have this )
personality changes ( I have this )
insomnia ( I have this )
phobias ( I have this )

Chest
palpitations, tachycardia
shortness of breath ( I have this )
recent high blood pressure

Gastrointestinal
nausea
diarrhea, sometimes with blood in stools ( no comment )
abdominal pain
pain when swallowing

Skin and Allergies
itching without a rash
lip and mouth reactions
hives
aggravated respiratory allergies such as asthma

Endocrine and Metabolic
loss of control of diabetes
menstrual changes
marked thinning or loss of hair ( well I have no hair )
marked weight loss
gradual weight gain ( I started to have this )
aggravated low blood sugar (hypoglycemia)
severe PMS

Other
frequency of voiding and burning during urination
excessive thirst, fluid retention, leg swelling, and bloating
increased susceptibility to infection

Additional Symptoms of Aspartame Toxicity include the most critical symptoms of all
death
irreversible brain damage
birth defects, including mental retardation
peptic ulcers
aspartame addiction and increased craving for sweets ( I have this badly )
hyperactivity in children
severe depression ( I can have this at times )
aggressive behavior
suicidal tendencies

Aspartame may trigger, mimic, or cause the following illnesses:
Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
Epstein-Barr
Post-Polio Syndrome
Lyme Disease
Grave’s Disease
Meniere’s Disease
Alzheimer’s Disease
ALS
Epilepsy
Multiple Sclerosis (MS)
EMS
Hypothyroidism
Mercury sensitivity from Amalgam fillings
Fibromyalgia
Lupus
non-Hodgkins
Lymphoma
Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD)
..............................
I know it's a ton to take in but before you drink that soda. Know what you are putting in your body. What I am currently going through is marked above. Can drinking soda really give you all of this? The answer is Yes it can.

The good thing is I might have found the issue before it really causes damage. As of today, no more Soda. Although I know I will miss it because it is addictive, I need to make sure I maintain because I have a family who needs me and I don't need to do anything dangerous or stupid that could cost me my life.

So the next time you put something in your body. Think before you Drink.

Ok tomorrow or the next I will post a Jesse memory. Till then...

Interesting

Divorce is never easy for anyone. I'm very sad to see that this could be the end. I sure hope its not. For a child it's never easy. How does one choose a Parent? You love them both.

Then it comes down to who am I compatible with? In truth it should be both parents. Divorce isn't meant to happen but sadly it does. Marriage is a sacred bond that time itself has ruined. Not for all of course but for most of the world.

When asked if divorce was permissible, Jesus said: “Did you not read that he who created them from the beginning made them male and female and said, For this reason a man will leave his father and his mother and will stick to his wife, and the two will be one flesh’? So that they are no longer two, but one flesh. Therefore, what God has yoked together let no man put apart.

When a married couple follow Jesus counsel and are faithful to each other, all in the family feel secure and happy. Jesus said: “‘You must love Jehovah your God with your whole heart and with your whole soul and with your whole mind. This is the greatest and first commandment.

The second greatest commandment? Jesus said: “You must love your neighbor including those living closest to you—your family as yourself.” So the key to family happiness is having a good relationship with God because love for him moves us to love one another.

One flesh...The words themselves are powerful but one must know how to become one flesh. It's not easy to do but with Jehovah's help, there is nothing that cannot be done. Jesus set the example. He is our head and he expect us to act in a way that brings honor to our wives.

I sit here thinking of the pain in both your mom and dad's heart. I feel it and I pray that they will reconsider what they may do and work it out. I hated when my mother left my father. It hurt not seeing him or holding him or knowing that he was there to talk to me. I missed out on that father figure.

Anyway, I'll post some pics of Jesse's Car. It's not a new car but it's nice. Have a great weekend.

Interesting

I was about to head to bed before I read what was posted. I couldn't help but feel sorry for all that is going on. I've always said and I'm sure I mentioned it several posts ago that most relationships go bad because of the man.

If the man is doing right by his wife, she will feel loved instead of pain and I mean pain in the heart. And you are correct. It's not enough just to provide material. You have to provide emotional. You can't pay a bill and say " See I told you I loved you, didn't I just pay your bill? "

Or this one I've heard. I wouldn't stay here and pay all of this if I didn't love you. Men sadly may view their wives as maids. They cook, they clean, they do everything and its sad that when you ask a man to do something, there is always an excuse.

If you ask a man to cook he will say sure I'll cook. First thing he does is pickup the phone and order pizza. That's how he cooks. There was a time when I did the same thing and I felt bad. I took action. My wife is a better cook than I am so she does all the cooking. If I have to step in, I do but she's better.

I help clean. The children help clean. Jesse helps around the house as well. So we all do our part because all of it cannot be placed on her shoulders. Several years ago I got into cooking because I wanted to help her in the Kitchen.

See our first Anniversary was like this. I didn't know how to cook but I wanted to surprise her. We were at her house. She left to go buy my gift I guess. I can't really remember what she did but she was gone and that was enough time for me to prepare food.

I set a table with candle light. She came home. It was in the room. I didn't want her to go into the Kitchen because of what I was preparing. Now, she goes in and she's shocked. Everything was perfect. I came in with food on the plate and it came out great.

We ate and the night was beautiful. Years later I told her the truth about that night. While she was out, I ran out to purchase food. I can't remember what I bought but I told her years later that I purchased food that it wasn't me who cooked.

I wanted to impress her. I think she knew but never said anything because of the effort I gave. I'm going to remind her of that story when we wake up later in the morning.

That flame never went out. I love my wife with all my life. My very soul. She feels the same toward me. Yes I mention that over and over and you know why? Because it's the cause and effect. My actions move her to action thus our flame never will go out.

When a man expects his woman to do everything then sooner or later she will lose interest. I wish I had to words to fix what ever is going on in that family of yours but sadly from what it sounds like. Dad needs to change and if he doesn't it's going to cost him the very thing that he loves and I have no doubt that he loves, he just isn't showing it and there is where the problem is.

You can't be right all the time.
No reason to try and out do everyone.
Material cannot replace love.
Doesn't hurt to say I love you.

There is so much more....but I have to sleep. Work in a few hours. LOL I have to provide you know. LOL

There is an excellent book called the two keys to family happiness that I tried to offer your dad when you guys were in San Jose.That book helped my relationship with my wife so long ago. It taught me the role of a man in the family. The role of a woman in the family. And what role Jehovah and Jesus plays in the family.

Two Keys.

The first key is love. Interestingly, there are different kinds of love identified in the Bible. One is a warm, personal affection for someone, the kind of love that exists between close friends. Another is the love that grows between family members.

A third is the romantic love that one can have for a member of the opposite sex. Of course, all of these should be cultivated by a husband and a wife. But there is a fourth kind of love, more important than the others.

In the original language of the Christian Greek Scriptures, the word for this fourth kind of love is a‧ga′pe. I mentioned this before. That word is used at 1 John 4:8, where we are told: “God is love.” Indeed, “we love, because God first loved us.”

A Christian cultivates such love first for Jehovah God and then for fellow humans. The word a‧ga′pe is also used at Ephesians 5:2, which states: “Go on walking in love, just as the Christ also loved you and delivered himself up for you.”

Jesus said that this kind of love would identify his true followers: “By this all will know that you are my disciples, if you have love [a‧ga′pe] among yourselves.” Notice, too, the use of a‧ga′pe at 1 Corinthians 13:13: “There remain faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love [a‧ga′pe].”

What makes this a‧ga′pe love greater than faith and hope? It is governed by principles—right principles—found in God’s Word. It is an unselfish concern for doing to others what is right and good from God’s standpoint, whether the recipient appears to deserve it or not.

Such love enables marriage partners to follow the Bible’s counsel: “Continue putting up with one another and forgiving one another freely if anyone has a cause for complaint against another. Even as Jehovah freely forgave you, so do you also.”

Loving married couples have and cultivate “intense love [a‧ga′pe] for each other, because love covers a multitude of sins.” Notice that love covers mistakes. It does not eliminate them, since no imperfect human can be free from error.

When such love of God and of each other is cultivated by a married couple, their marriage will last and be happy, for “love never fails.” Love is “a perfect bond of union.” If you are married or planning to get married you might ask, how can you and your mate cultivate this kind of love?

Read God’s Word together, and talk about it. Study Jesus’ example of love and try to imitate him, to think and act like him. Pray for God’s help to develop this elevated kind of love, which is a fruit of God’s holy spirit. That is the first key.

The second key. If two married people really love each other, then they will also have respect for each other, and respect is the second key to a happy marriage. Respect is defined as “giving consideration to others, honoring them.”

God’s Word counsels all Christians, including husbands and wives: “In showing honor to one another take the lead.” The apostle Peter wrote: “You husbands, continue dwelling in like manner with your wives according to knowledge, assigning them honor as to a weaker vessel, the feminine one.”

The wife is counseled to “have deep respect for her husband.” If you want to honor someone, you are kind to that person, respectful of that one’s dignity and expressed views, and ready to fulfill any reasonable request made of you.

Those who wish to enjoy a happy marriage show respect for their mates by “keeping an eye, not in personal interest upon just their own matters, but also in personal interest upon those of their mates.” They do not consider what is good only for themselves—which would be selfish. Instead, they consider what is best also for their mates. Indeed, they give that the priority.

Respect will help marriage partners to acknowledge differences in viewpoint. It is not reasonable to expect two people to have identical views on everything. What may be important to a husband may not be as important to a wife, and what a wife likes may not be what a husband likes. But each should respect the views and choices of the other, as long as these are within the boundaries of Jehovah’s laws and principles.

Further, each should respect the dignity of the other by not making that one the object of demeaning comments or jokes, whether in public or in private or in front of the children.

Love of God and of each other and mutual respect are two vital keys to a successful marriage. Two keys. I hope and pray that things change. I hope that their hearts open toward each other before its to late. I feel that the end is near....

very cool

No dear, you can talk all you want about Jesse. It makes me feel happy inside that he found someone like you. My wife and I were speaking and she even said how happy she is that Jesse has found someone that will love him 4ever.

It's really hard to find that kind of love. As mentioned, a co-worker is broke up after 4 years of being together. I know several who are getting divorces. This was news to me this week. One of my wife's old friends broke up with her boyfriend after being together for more than 8 years.

None of these people I mentioned above are witnesses. So no, talk all you want about Jesse.

Wednesday

I have a co-worker who broke up with her Boyfriend after 4 years of being together. It's interesting because what I was saying to her as to the reasons why they broke up is the exact reason he gave.

He had mentioned that he needed to make sure that she was the one for him before he asked her to marry him. So, that means that he would date others after four years of being together.

I thought that was interesting. To me I've always felt that if you knew that you were for a person, and they felt the same way, then that's the person you need to be with. I know Jesse more than anyone in the world. I raised him, I wiped his behind when he was a baby, and now that he is older, he has shared with me the most intimate details of his life.

We have an open relationship. I could never talk about the things he has spoken to me about with my father. I told him to always talk to me about his feelings and to never keep them in. This I said since he was younger. Men today hide their feelings. They put their emotions to the side and for some odd reason feel that they cannot open up.

Jesse isn't like that. I am not like that. My other children will not be like that. Why are men like that then? I have no idea. I have always been a big kid. Anyone who knows me or even just met me would already know how childish I can be. I'll give you one example of this.

We went out to the movies one night with our friends. I don't know why I did it but I pulled out my phone and addressed the crowd. LOL I said " Please do not get in front of my camera, I will be reordering " People started laughing.

Then when the previews started at one point it got dark and silent. I made a fart sound. LOL.

That's what I'm talking about being childish. I never lost the fact that inside we should never lose that about ourselves. Over time of course it goes away for many. Many that's the reason why the Truth made sense to us is because we are teachable.

Jesus said of children that the kingdom of heavens belong to them meaning Children are humble, kind, open, loving. There is more to what he said but this is the meat of it.

The world has their view of what a man should be like. How most men are. What most men do and the only thing men are interested in. Jesse isn't that way. What makes him different?

I'll give you another example. Joseph, a son of the patriarch Jacob, was sold into slavery at the age of 17. He eventually found himself in the household of Potiphar, an Egyptian court official, where Joseph caught the attention of his master’s wife.

She desired to have sexual intercourse with Joseph, who was a handsome man, and day after day she kept urging him: “Lie down with me.” Joseph was far from his family in a land where nobody knew him. He may well have been able to have relations with this woman without other people being aware of it. Yet, when Potiphar’s wife finally grabbed hold of him, Joseph fled. The man ran away.

Most men today in the world would have slept with that woman and wouldn't have thought twice about it. What was the difference? Joseph was raised in a God-fearing family, and he understood that sexual relations between people who are not husband and wife are wrong.

He stated “How could I commit this great badness and actually sin against God?” His conclusion was likely guided by knowledge of God’s standard for humans as expressed in Eden, that of monogamy. God’s people today benefit from reflecting on the way Joseph reacted to that situation.

God’s standard still is that fornication and adultery are sins. That hasn't changed but what do you see in the world? What are they saying about Jesse because he is a man? Just as the Scriptures remind us, a person who practices fornication is “sinning against his or her own body.”

Jesse is not interested in anyone other than Cedes. His heart belongs to her. How could he betray her over someone that wouldn't mean anything. You see it's you in the world that tend to look at things as they are today in terms of what a Man should be like. Jesse is not that kind of man. Like Joseph, he is God-Fearing.

He loves and values his relationship with Cedes and loves and values his relationship with Jehovah. In truth, he doesn't place himself in that situation because bad association spoils useful habits so the kind of people Jesse is around are those who share his same values. Who serve the same God he does. So you can see why he is protected and not tempted. He is different and if he was ever tempted, I can 100 percent say that he would run away like Joseph.

I wish people would stop comparing my son to those in the world. Unless you met Jesse or know him on a personal level, you wouldn't understand and unless you are one of Jehovah's Witnesses, you wouldn't understand.

Anyway...Have a great day and be safe.

Monday

I'm very excited about having another baby. The only part that makes me nervous is bringing another child into this system. I mentioned a few posts ago about being awakened.

Not only did I learn the Truth but I learned just how evil this world is. Many do not understand just how evil it is. Our only hope for the Future is God. Without God, all of us have no future.

I do have a hope though. I hope that if something happens, I would get to see one of my children have kids. I want to be a GrandFather of course I want my kids to be prepared to have Kids but I do hope I get to see my Grandkids. Reason being is this. My father never met any of my kids. My Grandmother Saw Jesse a few times.

And in Truth it's an extension of him which in turn is an extension of me. Sounds crazy I know. I also ask that my name be the middle name even if it's a girl. LOL

Anyway, I'm excited.

it's interesting what you run into

Today I saw a picture of my father. I cried when I saw it. I fought hard to hold back the tears. I haven't seen him in such a along time. I missed his face. I really miss him. I wish he was here so I can hug him. It's hard even typing this without crying.

When I think that I could see him in the future, it really is what heals my heart. His death was one of the main reasons I wanted to die when I was younger. I have some news. My wife Arlene told me last night that she is pregnant again.

She loves being a mother and I love being a father. I'm very proud of my children.

Interesting Thought

Tonight we are going to a party. It's interesting because I haven't been to one in such a long time. The party is for our brothers and sisters who are moving to Texas. They lived here for as long as I can remember.

The party was going to be a surprise but they found out. LOL

I'm going to miss them. When I came into the Truth, they were there. I have spoken to him about details that I haven't even posted here about my life. I'm really going to miss them.

Suffering

I don't recall touching on this subject to much but it is often asked. Why does God allow suffering? First let me say that God is not the cause of human suffering. Notice what is mentioned at Job 34:10: Far be it from the true God to act wickedly!

So if God isn't the one then Who, then, is the prime instigator of misery? Jesus called Satan the ruler of the world. Jehovah is the Universal Sovereign. That position he will never relinquish. However, for a time, God has allowed Satan to rule most of mankind. 1 John 5:19 says We know we originate with God, but the whole world is lying in the power of the wicked one.

the Entire World is controlled by Satan. What kind of ruler has Satan been? Ever since his first contact with humans, Satan has been a murderer and a deceiver. Satan wreaks havoc on human society in profound ways. Jesus indicted him with these words: “That one was a manslayer when he began, and he did not stand fast in the truth, because truth is not in him. When he speaks the lie, he speaks according to his own disposition, because he is a liar and the father of the lie. which is found at John 8:44.

Jesus also said that the men seeking to kill him were children of the first murderer. They made themselves his children by acting like him. Like father, like son, the adage states. You might ask, If God does not cause suffering, why does he allow it? Because universal issues, moral ones, raised a long time ago still need to be settled. Let us look at just one of them.

At the beginning of human history, Adam and Eve sided with Satan. They rejected God’s rule and chose self-rule, which was really rule by the Devil. Jehovah’s sense of justice required that time be allowed for evidence to accumulate. What is the inescapable conclusion?

Human rule under Satan’s influence leads only to suffering. Really, in the long run, God’s allowance of time has been for man’s benefit. How so? Those who study the evidence and believe it have the opportunity to demonstrate their willingness to be ruled by God. Those who learn of God’s standards and live by them have the prospect of living forever

True, for now, Satan has the world in his evil grip. But not for much longer. Under God’s direction, Jesus will mend broken hearts and restore shattered lives. He will resurrect back to life on earth billions of humans who have suffered and died over the centuries

The resurrection of Jesus is an example of God’s victory over the works of the Devil—a token of what is to come for humans who choose God’s rule. The Bible directs our thoughts to that time to come with these comforting words: God himself will be with mankind. And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away which is found at Revelation 21:3, 4.

Think of this as well. Those in times past that followed Jesus suffered in a way in which you and I cannot imagine. It is not God's will to allow suffering, he never intended for things to be this way.

In this system there will be times when we will suffer in one way or another. The most pain that I've felt in my life was when I lost my father but imagine the joy I felt when I found out that there was a chance that I could see him again. I gave a talk on that subject and I included my father in my talk. I have some crying because they felt my pain in my talk or they lost someone who they can't wait to see again.

Think about this as well. Everything that you will ever go through is only temporary. If you are in pain, pray. Open up your heart to God and understand that he doesn't like any of us to suffer. Imagine when Jesus died. Imagine the pain and suffering Jehovah must have felt. That was the only time in history that his son Jesus was not alive. So even Jehovah GOD the most powerful in all the universe also suffered because of the actions of Adam and Eve, and of course Satan the Devil.

But he does hurt. Notice this scripture found at Zechariah chapter 2 verse 8 which says: For this is what Jehovah of armies has said, Following after the glory he has sent me to the nations that were despoiling you people; for he that is touching you is touching my eyeball.

Have you been poked in the eye? It hurts. Jehovah says he that is touching you, in terms of making you suffer is like touching God's eyeball. I hope this post helps.

Interesting Thought

In the movie the Matrix Neo realized that the world he was living in wasn't the world he knew. He was awaken to the real world. In a sense that's exactly what this world and the new system in. We attempt to awaken people, unplug them so to speak.

I learned the Truth and realized just why the world is the way that it is. During the years of being a witness, preaching the good news, and attempting to teach others, I learned just how bad the world is.

I learned just how bad the world is. I was awaken again. Of course I'm still a witness, that hasn't changed. I still preach and I love Jehovah. That won't change. What I mean by being awaken again is that I see how evil the world is. Most in the world are blind to this kind of Evil.

The world was already Evil but again most are blind to what is going on today.

Have you ever looked into the Bail out? What it means? Have you looked into the Federal Reserve and how they print money? How you looked into the Patriot Act and how it was already written before 9/11? Have you looked into Internet 2.0 or as I call it the I-Patriot Act? Have you looked into just how the EU was created? Have you found out just how Building 7 fell on 9/11? Isn't it interesting that the Underwear bomber in Detroit was allowed on the plane and now we have body scanners in Airports?

There is so much more that at times it makes my head spin. I learned just how evil the world is.

Watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eAaQNACwaLw


After Watching ask yourself if you like me have been awaken.

Lots to Cover

I might have mentioned this before on this blog or maybe in person. I don't remember but I have tried to kill myself more than once in the past. With Drugs, I almost died from that as well. The Hospital saved me each time.

I think it all started when my father died. I just didn't care as much about life anymore. I didn't care what happened and I lived that way. At night I would think about life and wonder what exactly is hell if the earth is bad. Why me?

A knock on the door changed my life. Someone was there to tell me why the Earth is the way it is. Someone was there to tell me that God does care but I have to be responsible for what I will learn. Imagine if those who followed Jesus never opened their mouth?

Imagine if I did die. Jesse wouldn't be here today. My other children wouldn't be here today. So many doors that opened throughout the years would be closed. As a person who almost killed himself many times I can say this about it and there are several reasons.

You feel that nobody loves you. You feel like you aren't getting the support and attention you need. You think people think you are ugly. You feel that Mom doesn't care and if she doesn't who else can love me? This is just a small piece of what it feels like.

As a Parent, the older me learned many things. Learning the Truth opened many doors. My kids do not take drugs nor do they associate with anyone who does. I teach them as their Father and from experience the damage drugs can do.

I would show them a person on drugs just by driving around. They can see from the examples in our world. I don't think I'm going to have to worry about drugs. Since my father died of it, I'm so against it. But it does start at the home. It does start with a Parent teaching the child about the good and the bad in life.

For the subject of marriage. I have been with my wife for half my life. I mean that. How it is that our love is so strong after 20 + years of being together? Did it have it problems? Of course but we have a common love for our God Jehovah.

Has there ever been any witnesses that divorced? Of course, after all we are just people but compared to the world. It's very very low. In the three congregations I've been in. I never heard of anyone getting a divorce. When we said till death do us part, we meant it.

Of course with time any relationship can suffer. It's up the both the man and the woman to keep that spark alive. Respect for one another is key. If you are calling your mate names, that's not respect. We all get mad but is it over little childish things that don't matter? It would seem as if it's just picking a fight to fight. That's not respect.

And of course people of this, some just fall out of love. That spark has died and I've said this to many people because from my experience in life that I have seen. It's always the man that screws things up.

How can I say that? If a man is treating his woman like a princess, is she going to leave? If a man is loving his woman and showing her the proper respect, is she going to leave? If a man is giving his woman the attention she deserves, is she going to leave? Of course not because in her eyes she already has her prince.

Keep in mind when I say man loving his woman I mean married man/married woman. heheh

What happens if a couple does separate? Well that is something that I did hear of. Not in our congregation but another who happens to live in Abq. They moved out there along time ago. What happened to them? In truth I don't know but they didn't divorce. See God hates divorce. If you have to separate then so be it but you cannot marry anyone else because you set yourself up for fornication because in God's eyes you are still married.

My wife, after 20 plus years is the love of my life. She as the movie goes, completes me. If she were to go out one day and get into a car accident and pass away, I wouldn't move on with any other woman. I would wait for my wife in the new system.

She would wait for me. When a couple that has that kind of love, that strong bond, that is love and it has been and will be till I die or into the new system. My kids are going to be that way with their wives with their husband.

It's sad and true really that when a couple separate or divorces, it does have a domino effect. It hurts all which not only includes the children but also their friends, their family.

I was young when my mother kicked my father out but she felt as if she couldn't do it anymore with him. They never got married but they were a couple but because of my father's drug habit. He loved that stuff more than he loved us.

So for them, my mom made the best choice she can make for the family. Not only to protect her but to protect us. My advise is this...

Dad needs to get off his high horse and look at his wife. It's not games anymore, it's not guitar's, it's not what he is currently into. It's his obsessions with what he is into. His obsession should be her and not his items. Maybe then, she would have a change of heart.

As for Mantuz, I'm very sorry to hear about what he is going through. I was 13 or 14 when I tried to kill myself so in many ways I understand what he is going through. I don't know if it's his parents fault. Putting blame on anyone or anything doesn't help, it only continues the hurt. When I was feeling this way, I would close myself up and not open myself up to my mother.

Sadly most men or young men in this case close themselves up. They hide their emotions. Sometimes its to late. I am glad that he is getting help. I think that this should serve as a wake up call to his parents that they need to help their child because the thought of killing yourself doesn't go away over night. You have to believe that life is important.

It's hard for a young man to understand that sometimes and we live in a world where everything is stacked against you and we forgot how important love is or what love could be. Love is very powerful and it can accomplish many things. In Mantuz's case, he has to love himself and learn how to love himself. His parents have to show him that they love him.

As for Mom and Dad, both are special and I have a special place in my heart for the both of them. I hope it all works out but things need to change, not just from Dad but from Mom as well. They know and I'm sure you know what those changes are.

Yes the Guerra is still alive and well.

Well

Joshua's Eye Surgery is scheduled for this Monday. I'm working on keeping myself from crying. There is always risks with surgery and I've always been the kind of person who expects the worst.

I held him in my arms tight just praying to Jehovah to help us through this. Monday is going to be the worst day of my life. I really need Jehovah.....

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I mentioned this before in a post some time ago. If people stay in the truth, chances are that your marriage will be a success. Will there be problems? Of course there will be. Being a Witness doesn't make you immune to issues.

But how we handle it is different. I mentioned this to my oldest son. That as he gets older it's possible that woman will be attracted to him. I told him never to fall into that kind of trap. It can damage your relationship with Jehovah.

He mentioned that he would never do that for his heart already is spoken for. It's taken, sealed, locked away until it is unlocked by the only person in this world who has the key.

It's not fantasy. It's not a Disney movie. It's real, it's fact not fiction. The world will always try and put things into the heads of others. It might be a guy who can't seem to accept the fact that your heart already is taken so he starts to make up stories as if my son would really date another.

He wouldn't do that but the world will always say that or maybe it's a girl who is jealous about the relationship that she has to say things in order to make herself feel better.

I seen it all before. It's repeated history. Difference is, we are smarter now than we used to be and can see it coming from a mile away....

Trust me...Jesse's heart is locked away and sealed...you hold the key....

Interesting

It's funny how a person can say many things about another person and yet they don't even know the person. It's like people who say bad things about witnesses but yet they haven't learned what it means to be a witness.

The saying goes " if you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all " Isn't that true? In truth, we expect it and we should expect it. We should expect to be spoken about in a negative way. People don't understand us nor do they take the time to understand us thus they speak against what they don't understand.

I know many who were my friends and as soon as they found out I was a witness, they changed. I remained the same but they changed. I guess not smoking, getting drunk, or saying bad words didn't give them a hint that I was different.

Teachers in Jesse's school say positive things about how he conducts himself. He didn't tell me this. Another parent told me what the teachers were saying about Jesse. I want to make this clear so that there is no confusion.

Jesse is a Jehovah's Witness and because he is a Witness there are things that he cannot do. If he did what they world does, he wouldn't be a witness. It would go against all that believes in.

First, is the fact that Witnesses take love of another very seriously. We don't get married only to divorce when it gets tough. We take our love very seriously. Jesse's heart already belongs to someone who I as mentioned have accepted into my family.

He wouldn't do anything to damage that relationship with her and he wouldn't do anything that would damage his relationship with Jehovah. The world goes from person to person without thinking anything of it. What can come from that?

1. You can lose your virginity to someone you thought you loved
2. You can get pregnant.
3. You can get an STD.

I can go on and on. The world thinks it's normal to go from person to person. It's sad that parents have allowed their children to think this way. It's no wonder that a child at 11 or 12 is already mother. An example and there are many is about a girl who got pregnant at 11. See if this sounds like anyone you know. It's a little long so get a drink or something. This was back in 2006.

A Chain-smoking schoolgirl told last night how she fell pregnant during a drunken romp — at the age of just 11.

The petite youngster found she was expecting after losing her virginity to a teenager during the boozy one-night stand.

Lighting her third roll-up cigarette and watched by her proud 34-year-old mum, she confessed: “I didn’t think I’d get pregnant because it was my first time.

The girl, who is now 12 but cannot be named for legal reasons, is due to become Britain’s youngest mother when she gives birth next month — four months before her 13th birthday.

She comes from a large family in West Lothian and has an eight-month-old brother who will become an UNCLE before he turns one.

Showing her huge baby bump under a cropped white T-shirt and tiny black mini-skirt, the girl added last night: “I can’t wait to take the baby swimming and out for walks in the pram.

“I think I’ll be able to cope as I’ve had lots of practice looking after my brothers.

“I know how to feed a baby its bottle and I can change nappies.

“But I panic and cry if they’re sick and I don’t like giving them a bath because I’m a bit frightened.

“It’s good to know I’ll have my mum here to help me if I need her.”

The youngster had unprotected sex with a boy of 15 in Edinburgh on a night out with pals last August. The father, who cannot be identified, may face legal action.

The girl feared she might be pregnant and visited a doctor three times for tests, but each proved negative.

Only when she bought a supermarket home-testing kit did the truth emerge.

She said: “When I saw the two blue lines, meaning it was positive, I just started crying.

“I was paranoid about what my mum was going to say and just frightened about being pregnant too.

“I knew straight away that I couldn’t have an abortion because that’s something I don’t believe in.”

The girl eventually begged a female relative to break the shock news to her mum, who had given birth to a boy of her own just days before.

She said: “I was upset and so was my mum, especially as she’d just had my wee brother. I didn’t really talk to her much at the time, either, so that made things even harder.

“We had a big argument and I ended up locking myself in my room then running away to a friend’s.

“It was really hard, but it’s brought me and my mum closer, which is good.”

The girl’s mother immediately pledged to support her daughter, regardless of what she chose to do with her baby.

The dark-haired youngster said: “My mum’s been great. I knew she’d stand by me no matter what, but I told her straight away I was keeping the baby.

“The social worker suggested I got rid of it or gave it away after it was born, but I’d NEVER do that.”

The girl, who is in only her first year of secondary school, lives in a council flat and began smoking when she was nine.

She still puffs up to 20 ciggies a day, despite being eight months pregnant.

Yesterday she told how she took up drinking at just ten — sometimes downing a potent cocktail of Buckfast and vodka on nights out.

She said: “I can give up smoking at any time, but I don’t find it affects my pregnancy. I also don’t drink any more.”

The girl has excitedly been converting into a nursery the bedroom she currently shares with her sister.

She has hand-picked rolls of lilac wallpaper covered with pink, purple and silver hearts.

Her most cherished possession — a cuddly teddy bought by her dad — still takes pride of place there.

Stacked against the walls are boxes full of baby goods, including a pram.

The mum-to-be, who is hoping for a boy, went on: “I’m keeping well now that my morning sickness has passed — but I’m worried about getting stretch marks.

“My tummy has got so big I mostly have to wear stretchy clothes. But I still squeeze into my jeans. I love them too much to stop wearing them.”

The girl's parents, who split up several years ago, have vowed to stand by her all the way.

She said: “My mum has come to both my scans with me, which were amazing.

“The first time all I could see was a heartbeat, but then I had a scan at 12 weeks and fell in love with my baby straight away.

“You could see its head and body. It was brilliant.

“I’d like a wee boy as girls are too crabby. I’m not sure what I’ll call him, but I like the name Leo.”

The mum-to-be has quit school after a string of exclusions for fighting with fellow pupils and says she doesn’t want to go back.

She now takes part in an outreach programme, receiving lessons at a local community centre. But she admitted: “I know I’ll have to face school again eventually.

“I haven’t had a hard time from anybody about the baby yet, but I think a lot of the older pupils will slag me off when I go back.

“My mum has said she will look after the baby so I can go to school.

“I don’t know what I want to do with my life when I leave. I used to want to be a nursery nurse, but now I’m not so sure.”

She added: “I’m enjoying being pregnant — even though I get a bit of a sore back and sore ribs.

“I like feeling the baby kicking, but the first time it moved I got a massive fright. I didn’t know what was happening till my mum explained it to me.”

Last night her mum insisted she is looking forward to becoming a gran.

She said: “I’m not ashamed of my daughter at all — in fact, I’m proud of her for keeping her baby.

“I know she’s worried what other people will say. but she can walk out there with her head held high.

“She’s grown up a lot in the last few months.

“At first I wasn’t too happy about becoming a gran. But now I’m used to the idea, I’m really looking forward to having another baby about the house.

“I know she’s scared of going into labour and it’s even given her nightmares — but I’ll be there to hold her hand. She’s still my little girl and we’ll get through this together.”

Britain’s current youngest mum is Dorset-born Jenny Teague, who gave birth at 12 years and nine months in 1997 — also after a one-night stand.

The Sun told this week how a girl of 11 gave birth to a boy in Uxbridge, West London. A man of 37 was arrested and freed on bail.
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So as you can see from this story. The Girl was pregnant at 11. Smoked and was drinking. Her life is changed. What kind of mother allows her child to smoke? It's a common story but it's something that could happen to anyone.

Anyway, I will post more during the week.